GOODBYE

I am young..

I still remember when I am celebrating a New Year... with hubby and friends.. Its fun.. But not as last year, I just stay at home on eve because I'm pregnant and I rather stay at home and pray may Allah bless me with a beautiful child, stay healthy and many happy returns!

Alhamdulillah, my goal for year 2009 achieved!!

 the result shows- its positive

awww~ my preacious

And that's my goal for year 2009!! Alhamdulillah.. Hihihi.. *wink*

Much love Sara.. Much love from Mummy

THOSE DAYS

As i view my old pictures, I found few pictures that makes me smile. Sigh.. I was young that age when I started my own business. I miss those days when I'm young.. haha.. not saying that I'm old now it just.. its different now.. Much different now.

I miss my long hair

I miss my friend too.. where are they?

My other half

My big day

Our honeymoon in Bali. I always love Bali.

I miss my preggie moments

Its her- Leia Sara Qadeja

First time holding her

My preacious

There's no word from me when I look at Sara's 1st day born pictures. Its like a miracle. No words from me.

I want her to stay healthy and have a bright future. Nothing else I want for her.. Just loves and effections.

Much love from Mummy.

BLA BLA BLA

Holla!! Its quite a hectic weeks I can say because Sara not feeling well. She's having on-off high fever for 2 weeks and it really scare me. And end up, doctor advice me to refer to specialist since she has no improvement. We went to Tropicana Specialist Hospital at Kota Damansara. Alhamdulillah everything goes well, she has no symptom of H1N1 or dengue.

Alahai.. poor thing. Kecik- kecik dah kena sepit sana- sini.. Alhamdulillah.. she's doing fine now and recover from fever. She's been so active, feed well and doesnt show any signs that she's having a high fever 39deg. Sara.. mummy and daddy loves you so much.. we will do anything for you as long as you stay healthy and happy!!!

2010 around the corner!! A lot of things running in my mind now.. always and never ending! Lol~ I looovveee to dream sometimes.. (kadang2 selalu jugak) daydreaming ni sometimes good and can be bad as well. Good if you dream and turn it into reality but bad if you didnt do something to make it come true. So!!! as 2010 is just around the corner.. hehehe.. I hope I HOPE!!!! that I can slim down a little bit from 58kg to 50kg. OMG!!! So my inspiration to slim down are..

Tadaaa... u wish Ein!! u wish!!

Megan Fox? Why Megan? Even there's rumors said she is actually HE before? I dont care as long as she has hot body to work on it! I hope... hehehe... (berangan kuat gila!) Next was.. ok ok.. I dont have to think twice anyway that I will cut short my hair again~ hehe. So its goin to be like..

Back to square one- again. AGAIN. Sigh~ I always wanted to do mohawk as Naima.. but not at this moment but I will do it before age 30!!!! Next~ I wanna a hot- creative- supermommy as she!!! Not Halle.. but..

Kimora.. Live life in a fab lane!!! I do have her book!! I can tell much better than VB- that extra half an inch. Much much better!!! Stay fabulous!! But I never dream to be a mogul..a super great mogul as Kimora as I know where I stand. (I still remain realistic eventhough I love to have a big dream) And last but not least.. I hope I'm able to have a huge family, crazy, strong bonding as..

Yeah!!!!!! My fav Kardashians!!! Now one deliver (Sara)... 3 more to go.. I hope I can get 4 kids. 2 girl and 2 boys.. Yay!!! I never miss their reality show (how reality- I dont have idea) and the latest (not so actually) was Kourtney and Khloe takes Miami!! And upcoming on January  Keeping up with the Kardashians will be back!! Woot~

No matter what I hope I could be.. bla bla bla.. I still have to work on my collections as i should be ready my Raya collections 2 months before Raya. And also my spring summer dress that I promise Rafie to done it.. it almost done.

SINGER menawan keluarga bahagia

2010 HAIR

2010 just around the corner. Since Im gettin bored with current hair and i keep on losing hair.. I was thinking to cut it short- again. I wonder if I can bald? or just short hair or.. a mohawk? I dont know. I love to do mohawk but i dont think Kathy will accept it or else she dont wanna see my face for the next 2 months! Haha.. Well here are some pictures.. what say you?

should I do this?

or maybe this? yumm..

or.. just back to the square one?

Yeah.. I know.. I know.. many of them say ok.. but just make it normal hair cut.. but I think one day I will do the mohawk!! Yeehaa!!!

MY CURRENT FAVOURITE DRAMA

I've been following this drama since 9th Nov. I was searching what's best on astro suddenly I saw Dyesebel. Not bad. Its a story about a girl name Dyesebel who raise by other mermaid name Banak after her mother ex-queen of Sirenea; Lucia had to let her go, live in the sea after gavebirth to her. Lucia met Amaphora and ask for a leg to married with a guy on land. However, Dyesebel follow her mother by falling in love with a guy named Fredo, after saving him from drown when they were small. Since then, Dyesebel promise herself to meet Fredo; not only that, she promise to find her mother after Banak told her the true story.

More info? Watch Dyesebel every Monday- Friday 2pm Chanel 105!!

I hardly make a commitment to follow such drama but the lead actor Dingdong Dantes (Fredo) makes me!!

THOSE DAYS

Hye uols!! I have a blast and hectic weekend today! It's so tiring when you have to deal with uncivilized peoples but somehow.. its ok then.. just follow the flow.

Rafie just called me when I'm updating my facebook and asked if I can sew a bustier and a flare long skirt in 4 days.. hurm~ ok.. I expirienced doing same thing back in 2006 when I have to finish a layered dress in 18 hours and I tell you.. its crazy!! Super crazy. I dont even have an industrial machine back then just a normal portable Singer sewing machine, can you imagine.. ?? I still can remember how I half dead cutting the super soft silk chiffon into a small layer and then assemble it one by one.. and till morning I still remember, Isma aka Azma waiting for me at sofa, drinking double sachet of Nescafe while I finish the dress. Its so tiring but I enjoy it bcoz its a new expirience for me! I miss those days! I can tell I proud that finally I made it and I saw the dress on Pushpa Narayan but well.. it wasnt under my label bcoz Im doing it for someone else. But still, deep inside I am proud of it.

I never took any diploma in fashion before. Never! I only took a 3 months basic sewing at International Fashion Training Centre (IFTC) at Bukit Bintang. Im struggle back then, 10am-5pm got class, then rush back to Damansara and work 6pm-12am at Starbucks The Curve.. really teach me how to be independent!!! Well back to my story..

After 3 months, I didnt start any sewing business yet. But I started after a year. Slowly I took an order of Baju Kurung during Raya. Its fun and from there I realize that actually it can turn into a business. A home business. Im not happy bcoz other friends have skills to sewn a dress... bridal dress while I cant so I took a private class with Kak Lyn which is my former lecturer for 6 months. I learn as many as I want!! and I slowly developing new skills on my own and also I invest some for book and such.

I'm not saying Im happy what I have now but I try to be more greatfull and always remember to upgrade my skill from time to time. A perfect craftsmen needs time to sharpen their skills over the time. Im expecting to sell my own design for 2010 Raya collections and I hope it ready by 2 months before Raya.!!

Well I guess thats all for now. Got to go. My eyes getting smaller. Haha.. Good night.

" I DONT ALTER TO FIT YOU, BUT YOU ALTER YOURSELF TO FIT MINE "

BEAUTIFUL DECEMBER

You might wonder where I've been MIA almost 4 weeks. Few agendas held between this 4 weeks and I am so happy that, 1) I'm glad that have my dress been shoot and been so honored been one of invited Designer for The Virage. 2) Sara is back!! OMG, God knows how I felt when I saw Sara in front of the door when she reach from JB!!! And others.. hurm I think it's not the time yet to share but InsyAllah one day, I will share!!

Well, here's some pictures that I wanna share with you, courtesy from The Virage. Thank you so much for inviting me to join the shoot and I'm looking forward for more collaborations between The Virage, Rafie Mahmood and Nazuin Halim!









Retro Junk.

Photographer : Sumardi / Hermans
Model : Acha Hafsah
Make Up & Stylist : Rafie Mahmood
Wardrobe : Nazuin Halim
Post Processing : Sumardi / Hermans

TheVirage Edition.

It's been a year since I stop sewing when I'm pregnant.. and it's challenging to do- even though a simple dress like above - coz i need to recap all sewing and joining skills since I forgotten almost all. But Alhamdulillah, everything goes well during the photo shooting and it's quite scary coz the venue also.. quite spooky.. very old school but classic!! I like the idea. I'm looking forward to launch my new collection soon hopefully by mid January as I'm half dead working for it!!

I have a lot in mind now!! A lot!! but I cant really share with you now coz I'm scared if what I plan does not turn into what I expect. Its good to share when its already happen. But I really hope it comes true.

As I always remember this quotes
"If you wanna success, you have to go through all bumps"
"If you wanna lead, grab the steering!"

I think that's all for now as I am sooo tired and need to monitor Sara's body temperature coz she just had fever.. Sara gonna have a teeth soon!! I am so happy but poor Sara. Mummy and Daddy loves you sayang!

MOTIVATE MYSELF TO STAY CALM AND RATIONAL

I had enough of pleasuring others, but seems like I didn't get anything in return. I guess its time for me to stop tolerate and just follow the flow. I don't know its been so annoying!

All this while since I was small, become teenager and then married and become a mother, I love to learn new things such as baking, sewing and do house decorating. They are so many reason why I do that. Versatility. Self-improvement. But sometimes I forgot about my ability. Until one day, when I have a conversation with my friend, she ask me what is my hobby during free time. I said "cooking and sometimes sewing". Depends. If I have dress to do, I'll do. Or else maybe I cooked lunch for my husband. My friend said, " wow! Don't you realize u can make a business with your ability? You can cook, sew.. Don't you have some thoughts of having own business and be your own boss?" I was stunned and speechless. At that time, I feel great and proud of myself. At least I have skills that I can turn into business instead of make other people become richer. Haha but dear.. Its not as easy as you said. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I really appriciate it.

I have 1 thing that I keep myself which not everybody know about it. I do own a boutique before. Its around 3 years ago. Its under my name, my own boutique but sadly it doesn't turn as what I expect. I was so upset- of course!! Because I do all the set up, registering company name, source boutique materials alone.. Everything alone! I do all the hardworking with nobody helping. I even work alone. I'm the boss, the tailor, the marketing people.. All me! Eventhough I only have chances to run the business for 1 year before downgrade myself to do home basis business, but I manage to put my name as 1 of the sponsor for Dunia Anita sitcom and Fara at TV3. I was so proud to my name as NAZUIN HALIM appear on tv for almost 2 years. In the same time, I expirience to 'work' with one of Top Malaysian Young Designer- Amir Luqman. So I learn a lot from him, to prepare mental and physical if you wanna be as he is now. Babe, its a lot of hardwork, time consume and money $$ of course!

If people ask am I regret? I said NO. At least I learn from mistake. And one thing I believe in myself that its a not a failure, it just I don't find a right way to suceed. And I believe in why God give me this fate and I accept it with open arms. But!!! Doesn't mean I'm give up!! No!! I just need some time to stand up once again. And now I'm ready for it. ;-) I promise I will upload my boutique's pics.

I thanked to those who remind me and praise about my ability. I take their praises and plant it, nuture it and let it grow, one small seeds becomes a strong root of self-belief.
#1 Don't try to change yourself to fit a stifling status quo
#2 Never compare yourself with others
#3 Act like you are product and its promoter
#4 Always believe in your inner-strenght

I am looking forward to rebranding Nazuin Halim again. I don't know how its goes, I'll do my best to pursue my dream. I know its not easy and I'm not desperate. I understand it takes time to make it come true. All I want is moral support from my family and husband which I already get it!! Woohoo!!

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SARA BIG DAY- PART I

On 8th Nov 2009 was Sara big day!! I've planned this 3 months earlier so that I have time to do some changes if needed but Alhamdulillah everything goes well. Akikah held in the morning but i didn't slaughter the goat in front of my house of course.. but around 1.30pm they send the mutton and we manage to cook it by 4pm. So from morning I settled the dine area, put on table cloth and skirting. After that I rush took a shower and make up by Rafie. Sara enjoy her sleep while others busy doing the preparations.



The ceremony been organize by Rafie and his team, photographer by Fozan and Affiq, and make up done by Rafie himself.













but end of the day...



Sorry mummy, I have to change!! The dress was so hot!! Hahaha... I can see your dress lying next to you Sara. Nevermind..

I guess that's all for now, I am late for Pisau Cukur. Will upload more for Sara Big Day Part II and also Nazuin Halim will come out with her very 1st collection called E.. stay tuned!!

A credit for Rafie and Artisme team for their hardwork. For more info please call 012 7399610 (Rafie). I can gurantee he will give you the best touch ever with quality!!

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MAMUUT AND LILO IN MEMORY

I was speechless when i heard from Kak Ima; my sister-in-law saying that Lilo died a week ago. What?? As Kak Ima told me since her mother- Halle give birth a new kitties (5 of them), she seems to be so pasive and tend to stay alone instead of playing around with my nieces and nephews. Bakri's mom tried to put Lilo together with her mother- Halle but Halle chase Lilo away by scratching Lilo. Poor Lilo. She's my favourite coz among all Halle's kitties, Lilo was the most preetiest ever with white body and brown tail. If i knew earlier she left me that soon, i would give it to other people instead of letting she suffer coz lack of affection from Halle. Lilo has 1 sister- Mocca but i gave her to my friend- Ili so only left Lilo and Halle. So all this while she's been the only child to Halle of coz she been so attach to Halle.
Sigh~ mummy miss you so much Lilo. I'm sorry..



A month ago.. a went to JB to pick Sara back to KL.. I have a hamster named Mamuut. But its a bit weird that day coz normally Mamuut will running in his cage jumping up and down, running in his gym.. But he just lying under his gym. So, i yell and say "helloo Mamuut!". But he still not moving. Eh? I wonder why. So i poke him slowly.. still not moving.. ?? So i call my mom and ask why Mamuut not moving at all, normally even he heard a gate sound or a footstep, he will wake up and running around. My mom ran from kitchen and take a look at Mamuut cage, call his name and try to wake him up.. but sadly he already dead. Both of us was so shock and my mom started to cry. I has no tears to cry.. so just silent and ask abah to burried him in front of our house.



Ok, enough sharing sad news about Lilo and Mamuut. Sigh~

3:37 AM

Sigh~ while hubby enjoy his sleep n snoring out loud, I still awake and been thinking a lot lately. Thinking, planning, hoping of something that I'm not sure if there's any possibility to make it happen and how. When. And the only reason why I still stuck as the way I am now because I always said 'later-lah' and keep on pending. That's my biggest mistake. Regret? 1% but I believe I can catch up what I lost. Haha.

I met Rafie last weekend and we are having can-say-so lunch at IKEA (the food suck and they don't have water supply that day so I only can drink mineral water- sangat tak best). I'm proud of him, work so hard to establish his own label as a make up artist. I should follow him!! And he keep on shouting and ask when I wanna start my couture. Boy~ if I have time to do it- I'll do but the thing is I don't! Guess I have to learn how to manage my time and divide it between family, work and passion. Self-leisure? NONE! Sounds pathetic rite? But that's the truth.

I admit, since Sara born I don't have time for myself. I don't even have time to finish my magazine that has been stack like months.. And few books that been abandon halfway.. But to me- nothing can replace Sara. Sometime how I wish I could finish reading mags or books but its ok coz I rather spent more time with my lil angle. Books? Mags? Nah~ I can read it some other time. (I guess by the time I read, its already outdated!)

I've been thinking how to strenghten my relationship between family, husband, child, friends and new people. I admit, as time goes by- the older I am the more quiet I be. I use to be damn talkative before but now, I tend to be more quiet and prefer to stay alone. Why is that happen- I wonder why. Its not healthy coz I wanted to be in fashion industry. Whereby I need to get long with people and new people, to networking and built a relationship. But how? I am so shy to speak out or to start a small talk. And who should I refer to; to strenghten my PR with people. Sigh~ I was thinking to get a book. Finally I saw Ken Loh read a book titled 'to understand and to be understood'. I think is a good book coz it thought you about how to strenghten your relationship with others. And he recommend the book to me (of coz!! Coz he reading it!)

That's 1 of my latest problem. I gettin weaker in PR. #2 is- sketching skill! Damn~ even my handwritting is worst now. How to sketch! Rafie been laughing at me when I sketch Nana's wedding dress. Since I'm pregnant, I've been stop doing sketching nor sewing for almost a year! Plus the confinement period. I still remember Rafie said “for God sake Awin, are you drawing a statue or dress?” Dang- shame on me! Guess what? My hand shaky when I sketch it!! Its weird holding a pencil that time while all your fingers pretty blotted.

#3- sewing technique. My 1st cloth that I sewn is my mom blouse. Lucky I turn to be as what she expect. She been yelling and ask me when to do her blouse?? I said- ok ok I'll do it Mak but give me some time to catch up the comfort zone and skills. Ahacks! And now I'm confident to do my couture. Thank God!

Damn its already 4:30am! I guess that's all for now as my BB getting weaker. I think if it can shout surely it yell 'can you stop typing and charge my battery??'.

Got to go as it raining now.. Hmm.. Sweet dreams and I can't wait to meet Sara tomorrow. I miss you darl!!

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HELLO READERS

Its been a year that I haven't started my blog. Its quite funny anyway.. While I enjoy reading other people's blog, but I dont even think of having my own (which is I already had but didn't post any) and start to blog.

I am 25 now, married and blessed with a baby named Leia Sara Qadeja, my dear lovely daughter born on 2nd July 2009. She means world to me. Being single and freedom before, and never expect (but I wish to have 1 in young age)to have Sara this early.. I can tell time consume and each moment are preacious. Each time that I have for Sara are precious which I reserve- only for Sara. But however, as a normal human being I still pray and hope I'm able to continue pursuing my dream to ave own fashion house. And yes- I will!!

Well I guess.. I just restart blogging today, nothing much I can tell. But I will update more.. Coz the journey starts here..


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