ALHAMDULILLAH

Alhamdulillah to All Mighty Allah that I'm still alive and have chances to enjoy and cherish every single thing that been borrowed by Allah to all of us.

Alhamdulillah I still have parents and healthy.

Alhamdulillah I still have a lovely and happy family.

Alhamdulillah that I have such a supportive and understanding husband.

Alhamdulillah that I still can hug, kiss and raise my child.

Alhamdulillah that I am able to work harder to have a better living.

Alhamdulillah I have a such a sincere friends.

Alhamdulillah.

THE LEGEND

My dear atok- Zainah Binti Mat Ariff

She born in year 1936. She has been such a great Atok ever in my life that no one could replace. She is a person who soft, sensitive, loving, caring but yet very alert on what happpened surround. She never scold us. She always cooked a good and tasty food for us. She never let us down whenever we want her to cook something coz we love her cooking!! How I miss all that so much since she felt sick since 2 years back. She barely remember all of us. Atok, we understand your condition now. But we still can feel your pure loves evetho you cant even speak to us anymore. We loves you so much Atok!

HARD TO LET GO

Its 3.32am and i am still awake. My minds flies and empty. Suddenly I felt so sad and I have to accept the facts that I'm going to leave this house when the right time is come. I look around. I still remember when the first time I step into this house. Its empty. No grills. No curtain hanger. Dusty. Brand new and I can tell I am one of the first batch who move in Pelangi Damansara.

Bank called me on my lunch time. En. Zul said- congratulations, your house loan has been aprroved. Unfortunately I cant get Mr. Bakri. So I told him, that I will ask Bakri to call him back. I am so happy that my dream come true. I waited almost 4 months but I didnt put on high hope. I just have faith that I will get that house. Im gonna have my own workshop when we move to a new house. Im gonna have my own space to sew. Sara will have her own room and place to play. Sara will have chances to play at swimming pool since she always love play with water, bubbles and floating ducks during shower time. Bakri will have his own chill space, astro, games.. and I was thinking to get a foosball table or maybe a mini pool. And I can enjoy a free gym!! And a sauna! When free time I can have new activities such as cyling and playing badminton with hubby and Sara. And the best part- my kitchen will be 3 times bigger!! Alhamdulillah.

InsyAllah, when we move in soon, first thing that we have to do is 'cuci rumah'. Paint the house, choose a nice lighting, a fan, kit cab, grills.. when everything done, I will do a doa selamat and also some makan-makan. I cant wait but I know I still have to wait, after my lawyer will settle things with the owner. And I started to packed.

After all this, I can see how things change. From a kid turns to teenager, then a youth.. found a guy and in love.. engaged and tie a knot with a marriage, after 3 months waiting.. blessed with a baby girll.. and now.. moving into a bigger house. How I see myself transforming from someone single into a married lady who have 1 kid but still stay the same. :-) How I see myself having a bigger responsibility compared to yester years. How I see myself have a mission and goals to make my life better. How I see myself as a grown woman and gettin older. And how I see myself dont have much times to pursue what I love.

Yes, people said its a long way to go. You are still young. But I dont think so. Im aging through the time how times are so preacious to me. I'm stuck in the middle now. Its hard to explain in here as its a little bit complicated but I can survive.

I do hope, everything goes well for 2010. I have a big hope this year and will change my life as well.

InsyAllah.

UNTITLED

I think I had enough on 'slaving' myself doin things that I dont really like but I have to do it for the sake of money. Whereby, I have to spent like 13heures including travel per day and I only have 11heures left. Shower? Sleep? Time for Sara? Sewing? Ya Allah.. Allah knows how I wish I have more time and if I can add another 6heures extra, I'll do it!!

Speaking of latest issue about Allah exclusively for Muslim- I totally agree with it! Sometimes, I do meet some non-Muslim say "Alhamdulillah" , "Ya Allah" .. some say "wah pandai lah you sebut macam tu" but I totally not happy and agree with it. sometimes, the way they pronounce itis different so its tend to turns into other meaning. To avoid confusion between all religion, I think we should make it clear- Allah was exclusively for Muslim people. And I agree with Che Det when he said, God is Tuhan but not Allah.

Sharng is caring. I like this words. These day, I saw in the paper, a lot of cases about abortion among youngsters. I feel like paste on how baby look like after abortion whereby some of the body split into 4, some turns like a mince meat.. SubhanAllah.. unfortunately, to respect everybody's feeling, I cant share the picture here where I google and watch from you tube. Its so touching when you see a baby's head just as big as 10cents, still red and the mother dont want them. I dont understand why they have guts to throw the baby in the dustbin, or river and even flush it in the toilet?? or buried them alive??? I dont know what kind of human they are. If you know you are about to abortion, why dont you just do it when they are not being shape like a human yet? Why? Why dont you give it to Child Welfare instead of throwing them like rubbish? Why? I always wonder why. Did they know some married couple waited for 5-10 years sometimes just to have a baby? Do they know? I just pray and hope, 1 day if they are married, and they still not have any baby yet, the answers are with them!

Gtg.. talking about abortion make me pissed off. Sorry for being so emotional. They are just... so cruel! Enough said!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! 2010

Hye uols!! Happy New Year!! I'm sorry, I dont have fabulous pictures of mine celebrating NY this year bcoz me and hubby choose to stay at home and pray may we blessed with a beautiful life ahead! But I did enjoy the fireworks from my room's window.Its awesom!!

I have a very good start for 2010. I am so happy so as a reward I bought Sara 2 pairs of T-shirts + pants at Poney (its still on sales!! hehe) and a hair cut done at Kota Damansara shop. (Sorry I forgot the shop name but I knew where it is because I always bought baby things at Camy beside the saloon. Its cheap!!) Their service are very good and super friendly!! I'll be back when I need to trim my hair.

A boy cut. Lucky my husband didnt freak out

Actually, it's... quite short though.. because when they cut, we both chating but in the same time I busy facebooking. Haha.. so I guess they unintentinally over cut my hair but... I kinda like it.. hihi.. easier to manage after this! Moral of the story, do not facebooking while they cut your hair so you can monitor. Lol.