MOTIVATE MYSELF TO STAY CALM AND RATIONAL

I had enough of pleasuring others, but seems like I didn't get anything in return. I guess its time for me to stop tolerate and just follow the flow. I don't know its been so annoying!

All this while since I was small, become teenager and then married and become a mother, I love to learn new things such as baking, sewing and do house decorating. They are so many reason why I do that. Versatility. Self-improvement. But sometimes I forgot about my ability. Until one day, when I have a conversation with my friend, she ask me what is my hobby during free time. I said "cooking and sometimes sewing". Depends. If I have dress to do, I'll do. Or else maybe I cooked lunch for my husband. My friend said, " wow! Don't you realize u can make a business with your ability? You can cook, sew.. Don't you have some thoughts of having own business and be your own boss?" I was stunned and speechless. At that time, I feel great and proud of myself. At least I have skills that I can turn into business instead of make other people become richer. Haha but dear.. Its not as easy as you said. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I really appriciate it.

I have 1 thing that I keep myself which not everybody know about it. I do own a boutique before. Its around 3 years ago. Its under my name, my own boutique but sadly it doesn't turn as what I expect. I was so upset- of course!! Because I do all the set up, registering company name, source boutique materials alone.. Everything alone! I do all the hardworking with nobody helping. I even work alone. I'm the boss, the tailor, the marketing people.. All me! Eventhough I only have chances to run the business for 1 year before downgrade myself to do home basis business, but I manage to put my name as 1 of the sponsor for Dunia Anita sitcom and Fara at TV3. I was so proud to my name as NAZUIN HALIM appear on tv for almost 2 years. In the same time, I expirience to 'work' with one of Top Malaysian Young Designer- Amir Luqman. So I learn a lot from him, to prepare mental and physical if you wanna be as he is now. Babe, its a lot of hardwork, time consume and money $$ of course!

If people ask am I regret? I said NO. At least I learn from mistake. And one thing I believe in myself that its a not a failure, it just I don't find a right way to suceed. And I believe in why God give me this fate and I accept it with open arms. But!!! Doesn't mean I'm give up!! No!! I just need some time to stand up once again. And now I'm ready for it. ;-) I promise I will upload my boutique's pics.

I thanked to those who remind me and praise about my ability. I take their praises and plant it, nuture it and let it grow, one small seeds becomes a strong root of self-belief.
#1 Don't try to change yourself to fit a stifling status quo
#2 Never compare yourself with others
#3 Act like you are product and its promoter
#4 Always believe in your inner-strenght

I am looking forward to rebranding Nazuin Halim again. I don't know how its goes, I'll do my best to pursue my dream. I know its not easy and I'm not desperate. I understand it takes time to make it come true. All I want is moral support from my family and husband which I already get it!! Woohoo!!

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SARA BIG DAY- PART I

On 8th Nov 2009 was Sara big day!! I've planned this 3 months earlier so that I have time to do some changes if needed but Alhamdulillah everything goes well. Akikah held in the morning but i didn't slaughter the goat in front of my house of course.. but around 1.30pm they send the mutton and we manage to cook it by 4pm. So from morning I settled the dine area, put on table cloth and skirting. After that I rush took a shower and make up by Rafie. Sara enjoy her sleep while others busy doing the preparations.



The ceremony been organize by Rafie and his team, photographer by Fozan and Affiq, and make up done by Rafie himself.













but end of the day...



Sorry mummy, I have to change!! The dress was so hot!! Hahaha... I can see your dress lying next to you Sara. Nevermind..

I guess that's all for now, I am late for Pisau Cukur. Will upload more for Sara Big Day Part II and also Nazuin Halim will come out with her very 1st collection called E.. stay tuned!!

A credit for Rafie and Artisme team for their hardwork. For more info please call 012 7399610 (Rafie). I can gurantee he will give you the best touch ever with quality!!

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MAMUUT AND LILO IN MEMORY

I was speechless when i heard from Kak Ima; my sister-in-law saying that Lilo died a week ago. What?? As Kak Ima told me since her mother- Halle give birth a new kitties (5 of them), she seems to be so pasive and tend to stay alone instead of playing around with my nieces and nephews. Bakri's mom tried to put Lilo together with her mother- Halle but Halle chase Lilo away by scratching Lilo. Poor Lilo. She's my favourite coz among all Halle's kitties, Lilo was the most preetiest ever with white body and brown tail. If i knew earlier she left me that soon, i would give it to other people instead of letting she suffer coz lack of affection from Halle. Lilo has 1 sister- Mocca but i gave her to my friend- Ili so only left Lilo and Halle. So all this while she's been the only child to Halle of coz she been so attach to Halle.
Sigh~ mummy miss you so much Lilo. I'm sorry..



A month ago.. a went to JB to pick Sara back to KL.. I have a hamster named Mamuut. But its a bit weird that day coz normally Mamuut will running in his cage jumping up and down, running in his gym.. But he just lying under his gym. So, i yell and say "helloo Mamuut!". But he still not moving. Eh? I wonder why. So i poke him slowly.. still not moving.. ?? So i call my mom and ask why Mamuut not moving at all, normally even he heard a gate sound or a footstep, he will wake up and running around. My mom ran from kitchen and take a look at Mamuut cage, call his name and try to wake him up.. but sadly he already dead. Both of us was so shock and my mom started to cry. I has no tears to cry.. so just silent and ask abah to burried him in front of our house.



Ok, enough sharing sad news about Lilo and Mamuut. Sigh~

3:37 AM

Sigh~ while hubby enjoy his sleep n snoring out loud, I still awake and been thinking a lot lately. Thinking, planning, hoping of something that I'm not sure if there's any possibility to make it happen and how. When. And the only reason why I still stuck as the way I am now because I always said 'later-lah' and keep on pending. That's my biggest mistake. Regret? 1% but I believe I can catch up what I lost. Haha.

I met Rafie last weekend and we are having can-say-so lunch at IKEA (the food suck and they don't have water supply that day so I only can drink mineral water- sangat tak best). I'm proud of him, work so hard to establish his own label as a make up artist. I should follow him!! And he keep on shouting and ask when I wanna start my couture. Boy~ if I have time to do it- I'll do but the thing is I don't! Guess I have to learn how to manage my time and divide it between family, work and passion. Self-leisure? NONE! Sounds pathetic rite? But that's the truth.

I admit, since Sara born I don't have time for myself. I don't even have time to finish my magazine that has been stack like months.. And few books that been abandon halfway.. But to me- nothing can replace Sara. Sometime how I wish I could finish reading mags or books but its ok coz I rather spent more time with my lil angle. Books? Mags? Nah~ I can read it some other time. (I guess by the time I read, its already outdated!)

I've been thinking how to strenghten my relationship between family, husband, child, friends and new people. I admit, as time goes by- the older I am the more quiet I be. I use to be damn talkative before but now, I tend to be more quiet and prefer to stay alone. Why is that happen- I wonder why. Its not healthy coz I wanted to be in fashion industry. Whereby I need to get long with people and new people, to networking and built a relationship. But how? I am so shy to speak out or to start a small talk. And who should I refer to; to strenghten my PR with people. Sigh~ I was thinking to get a book. Finally I saw Ken Loh read a book titled 'to understand and to be understood'. I think is a good book coz it thought you about how to strenghten your relationship with others. And he recommend the book to me (of coz!! Coz he reading it!)

That's 1 of my latest problem. I gettin weaker in PR. #2 is- sketching skill! Damn~ even my handwritting is worst now. How to sketch! Rafie been laughing at me when I sketch Nana's wedding dress. Since I'm pregnant, I've been stop doing sketching nor sewing for almost a year! Plus the confinement period. I still remember Rafie said “for God sake Awin, are you drawing a statue or dress?” Dang- shame on me! Guess what? My hand shaky when I sketch it!! Its weird holding a pencil that time while all your fingers pretty blotted.

#3- sewing technique. My 1st cloth that I sewn is my mom blouse. Lucky I turn to be as what she expect. She been yelling and ask me when to do her blouse?? I said- ok ok I'll do it Mak but give me some time to catch up the comfort zone and skills. Ahacks! And now I'm confident to do my couture. Thank God!

Damn its already 4:30am! I guess that's all for now as my BB getting weaker. I think if it can shout surely it yell 'can you stop typing and charge my battery??'.

Got to go as it raining now.. Hmm.. Sweet dreams and I can't wait to meet Sara tomorrow. I miss you darl!!

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HELLO READERS

Its been a year that I haven't started my blog. Its quite funny anyway.. While I enjoy reading other people's blog, but I dont even think of having my own (which is I already had but didn't post any) and start to blog.

I am 25 now, married and blessed with a baby named Leia Sara Qadeja, my dear lovely daughter born on 2nd July 2009. She means world to me. Being single and freedom before, and never expect (but I wish to have 1 in young age)to have Sara this early.. I can tell time consume and each moment are preacious. Each time that I have for Sara are precious which I reserve- only for Sara. But however, as a normal human being I still pray and hope I'm able to continue pursuing my dream to ave own fashion house. And yes- I will!!

Well I guess.. I just restart blogging today, nothing much I can tell. But I will update more.. Coz the journey starts here..


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